By now I am sure you all are wondering when this story will end as much as we are. As of this posting we still don’t know where or what is happening, but we sense in the Spirit we are coming to an end. By the next post we should know for sure just what the Lord has accomplished in providing a dwelling place for us…just this last Thursday night we had a meeting here of 50 believers to share together to hear a missionary to Israel speak. We thank God that He has provided a place to continue His ministry to the saints. It is all within His plan. Please start with Part 1 if this is your first time to read this blog.
* The Lord has delivered us by faith. We just can’t see it yet. Almost one year to the day this all began, and He has done so much in our hearts and lives in the midst of such a dark time. Our marriage is actually stronger as the trial has drawn us closer together. We have witnessed a miracle in our hearts as we have stood together for God’s provision. Today the offer is being made to the investor to buy our house back. I can’t get over this sense of awe as I think back to the journey of 2011; The pride, surrender, anger, grief, fear, acceptance, and finally total surrender to His will. The letting go of earthly possessions in our hearts was such a sense of freedom in realizing what is really important in our lives here on this earth. When we heard last night that the offer was being made today we literally danced a happy dance around the garage together singing, “The Lord our God in the midst of us is mighty, He will save and rejoice over us with love, with love. We will rest in his love. He will rejoice over us with singing. The Lord our God in the midst of us is mighty, is MIGHTY!”
Amazing!!!! It looks like the house is ours but can’t be sure until the offer is accepted by the new owner. There are so many things happening right now. The enemy is not happy about what God is doing so has been working overtime trying to dismantle what is happening, either through doubt or through people, who mean well, but has caused us much stress and anguish. In the last few days we have had dear friends talking about us behind our backs and trying to hurt us. Some are saying we are in denial and just need to move. Others are saying we would do anything to save our home, even hurt our friends. We don’t have a clue where these rumors are justified because they just aren’t true. But they have intensified the stress we feel at this point of the journey and caused us much pain. The winds of adversity continue to blow. Satan is really mad about God delivering us out of this and so is using a few of our own friends to turn on us and gossip about us.
However, in the midst of the battle God raised up two men, one in Arkansas, and one in Wyoming….acquaintances of Greg’s that I have never meant. They have been praying for us day and night and we have gotten many encouraging words from them about things they have known nothing about. They both have told us they know that we will not have to move out of this house. One said to tell me he saw an angel standing over my bed every night. Little did he know that every night I pray that God will post sentries at the corners of my mind to protect my mind while I sleep. He saw the angel that God sends every night!!! Greg didn’t even know that I pray that every night. Angels are constantly at work for those who are ‘heirs of salvation’.
Today the house was appraised for the new buyer. Tomorrow the offer will be made. If it is accepted the house will be owned by someone else, rented to us with option to buy when it is legal for us to do so.
January 9, 2011:
Today is a hopeful day, Lord. The house was appraised. Now we wait for you to work. We should know by the end of the week if we remain in the house. What an awesome God you are! Lord, there has been great adversity come to us from out of nowhere. The enemy is not happy with the way things are going. But we will come out of this, resting in your love. I just know it, and you will heal our bruises and restore it all. Thank you for revealing my angel to a total stranger. Wow!! Sometimes I pray fervently for a thing and believe but when I’m allowed to see into the spirit realm, even if it’s through someone else, I am amazed. I am surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses and spiritual encounters all the time but to actually have it confirmed is awesome. You work in so many ways.
I know everything about you Dixie. I know what you have need of. Sometimes there is a battle going on over you that you sense but cannot see. You are a danger to satan. You are strong in Me and he doesn’t like it. My warriors are very busy on yours and Greg’s behalf. Always remember I am never too late and only a whisper away. My timing is always perfect even if you can’t see why. I love you. ♥♥
It just seems this battle is unending. Another week has passed. We have to be out on February 15. We have been tested beyond what we thought we could endure with this house. We want to move on with our lives but everything seems at a standstill while we wait. The house was not appraised correctly which appears to have caused hesitancy with our new investor. We wait on a new appraisal to be completed and hold our breath until an offer can be made and secured. This is it we are sure. But every time we thought we had it complete something else has been thrown in the mix. I have seen such greed and money hungry people in this process. I have experienced under handed deception that I would never have believed. We have been persecuted beyond belief by some of those whom we thought would stand with us forever. We are realizing that the battle has been in our field and many have grown weary watching it and need to withdraw from hanging in there with us. It is okay.
January 15th. Oh Lord, I know there is so much that I cannot see and I question. I guess sometimes we just have to hold on until we see the completeness of your miracles. It is not that I don’t trust you. I am just tired of the whole thing. Just one little house in the midst of multitudes is not a hard thing for you. You just have to move all the pieces together and we may not know how many lives you are dealing with right now in the midst of this thing to open blind eyes to who You really are. So many are watching this process, even the unbelievers and dishonest ones, to see if you will do what we have proclaimed. I know your timing is perfect and you are never too late. You always have a plan. The fear and dread comes from my enemy. I will not give into it. I will remain above this weariness and fear of losing this house. Besides, even if we did lose it, it would mean a better one to fit your purposes that I cannot see right now. It is okay to feel alone in this because we have learned through this that it is all about Your presence in our lives and keeping our eyes on You. Thank you Lord for those faithful friends in your body who have been so supportive and have prayed so diligently and stood with us even in the weariness. Authentic relationships. You have raised up total strangers to pray through the night. Wow!! You have raised up a buyer whose only interest is to buy the house to get it back for us, with no thought of himself. Wow!! I am awed by You, Lord. This can only happen in Kingdom living.
January 16, 2012 and here we are into another week. We got a call yesterday that the deal may not happen. It hit us out of nowhere. We were on our way to lunch on the beach. At the news it seemed like all of a sudden our world dimmed. We were in shock. Puzzled. Hurt. What? At the cusp of it being over and us staying In this house and one more time we are feeling like the carrot was dangled and jerked away. We just stared at each other. We ate through a maze of shell shock, got back into the car, and drove home. We didn’t even know what to say to each other. What do you do when you have known with every fiber of your being that God is delivering you, finally, and it will soon be over, and then you hear that it possibly isn’t happening at all like you thought it would and you now have just a few days to move. Last night you gave me a song in the night. I went to Greg’s side of the bed, laid my hands on his head and began to sing: “Unto you on Lord, do I lift up my voice. Unto you oh Lord, do I lift up my voice. Oh Lord my God, we trust in you. Let us not be ashamed, let not our enemies triumph over us!!”
January 16, 2012: Jesus, I know you are always on time. I know you have spoken so many times about this journey to me. How do I get your mind in this one? How do I encourage my husband. He is broken today. Uncertain. Yesterday He made the proclamation to His bible study class that this week the house will be ours. Two hours later we get this call. I don’t understand, Lord. I just want to crawl under your wings for refuge. I need you to hug me. I am so tired. I feel like I am going through motions but not engaged in life. This is not your best for me, therefore I know it won’t last. The fire is still kindled upon us. I feel the flames. Greg feels the flames. We feel broken. Never the less, I will continue to trust You. You see the beginning to the end and you see things we cannot see. You say in your word, “The heart of the king is in the hand of the Lord, and you will turn it anyway you want it to go”, (my paraphrase).
Jesus says: My child I am walking this valley with you. I feel your pain. I know your confusion. I see how tired you are. From this point on you will be moving in the dark. You cannot see in front of you. Only I can. I am accomplishing more than you know at this juncture. I have been the One who has held you up all this time and given you joy in the midst of the trial. There is a great battle going on that you indeed have felt and the high places around you and Greg have heated up with warfare. Look, look, Dixie into the spirit world and see how loved you are as many angels have been involved in the battle for your home. Where you will end up in this trial will be where I have prepared for you. Hang on my child, for joy comes in the morning.
Once again I am realizing that whether we stay or go the Lord has our best interest in store. It’s just that the roller coaster ride is wearing us out. Yet, He promises to be our strength. We can know that with our heads but how to make it a reality is another thing. I believe we can know His promises but never live in them because we have to know how to press into them. How to make them happen because they are there to bring us into Kingdom living; because of what He provided when He gave us the same authority He walked in. So, it is about controlling the thoughts. Replacing them with what Jesus is saying. Cast down the doubt and replace it with the truth. Praise!! The enemy flees at praise. He can’t stand it. And we found our strength and our peace, in the midst of this uncertainity.
Our warrior went to work again and with another appraisal, (the first one was not done right), and some reassurance our investor is giving it some time. Bless him Lord, in all of his ways and give us favor. Just now at 5:30 this evening, the new owner’s representative taped a 30 day eviction notice to our front door and walked away. Seriously? This is becoming a story that has no end. Ugh!!
Part 5 to be posted soon, Lord willing. 🙂