But Lord, the Desert is Too Hot…and I am Thirsty!

488089_174658782681930_87433307_nWe all have had desert experiences in our lives at different seasons of time along our journey.   Some seasons of trial are short and some are very long.

He loves us so much that sometimes He allows us to stay in those deserts for a while to bring us back to Him.  When it gets hot and dry we start looking for Him for relief.  You know why?

He misses you and desires relationship with you.

Hosea 2: 6-14 says

“Therefore will I block her path with thorn bushes.  I will wall her in so that she cannot find her way.  She will chase after her lovers but will not catch them.”

He does this to bring us to the end of ourselves and to get us to turn to Him in thirsty longing.  Then He begins to draw us to Himself. He often takes us aside from every source of comfort so that He alone can have our heart’s attention.

Then He says in 2:14

“Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her.”

And it is here that we begin to experience him not as the God up in heaven, the big guy in the sky, the God of Sunday Mornings, but as the pursuer of our hearts; As our lover.

“In that day, declares the Lord, you will call me “my husband” and you will no longer call me “my master”.   I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion.” (Vs 16-19)

This love is not something we struggle for, earn or fear.  It is bestowed upon us. 

He has chosen us. 

We are made for such a love.

Our hearts yearn to be loved intimately, personally, and romantically.  We are created to be the object of His desire and affection and He is totally and completely in love with us.

It is for each and every one of us.  God wants intimacy with YOU!  In order to have it you must offer it to Him and surrender yourself over to Him.

Part of my story, (you can find the whole story in my book, “Climbing Out of the Box” on Amazon) is that I was forced by extremely painful circumstances into five years of desert where I met Jesus face to face. In the first couple of years of my sweltering in the desert I experienced:

Anger

Desperation

Depression

Abandonment

Emotional Agony

Empty Nest

Financial woes

Heartbreak

Then out of my own depth of pain I sought Him. 

I began talking…and he did too. 

Outside of performance I was alone and free to pursue Him as my lover.   I started listening to Him again.  And He was faithful to show me how my own denials led me into the wilderness, and He allowed it.  He allowed it to show me the difference in true relationship and performance driven religion.     We took walks, drives, and had long talks together.

And when the revelation came that I did not have to do anything to make Him love me more than he did at that moment, nor did I have to DO anything but love Him, I was set free.

It is for freedom He has set us free.  (Galatians 5:1)

For the whole story of my journey click here:

“Climbing Out of the Box,
My Journey Out of Sexual and Spiritual Abuse Into Freedom and Healing. “

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13 thoughts on “But Lord, the Desert is Too Hot…and I am Thirsty!

  1. Great word of encouragement Dixie! The desert is where Jesus started His earthly ministry, and we meet Him there still today. Isaiah 40:30,31 applies.

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  2. Dixie…what a great word for all of us! I know all about those desert experiences, and looking back, I can see how God was drawing me to Himself, even though I “felt” he was far away. I longed for Him. The Word says, “Draw near to me and I will draw near to you.” You are such a great encourager, Dixie!

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  3. One time in my conversation with God, I thanked Him for talking to me. His response, ever so gently, was…”thank you for listening”. That seemed to be the key for me to enter, was to know when to listen.

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  4. HI Dixie, I cannot imagine the depth of the desert that you went through but I am so glad for God’s promises and faithfulness to not only bring you through it, but also to use it to help you help others. Bless His holy name. In your bio, I noticed you said “addiction to ministry.” That is very poignant. I love to read more about that too. Blessings, Amy

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  5. Hi Amy! yes, you can read the complete story of my addiction and subsequent spiritual abuse as a result in my book…but I will be putting parts of the story in my blog from time to time…Blessings!!

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  6. Awesome blog post. The desert is a dry, hopeless, hot, uncomfortable place. Thank goodness we have the Lord to find solace in. What a wonderful thing you are doing with the pain from your past – using it to spread the word and ease the pain of others.

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