It is my story. MY story! We all have a story. This is mine. I am getting ready in a few weeks to launch my 2nd book, 50 Ways To Meet Your Lover, An Invitation Into a Captivating Walk With Jesus the Lover of Your Heart and Soul.
A SECOND BOOK! How crazy is that?
Who knew this would happen in my life. I could not have dreamed that the little girl who was a victim of incest, abused by her spiritual leaders; the woman who endured seeing her own sweet little girl become a victim of the same travesty; the woman who had no self esteem, no hope for the future, and no idea she even had a gift to use for God could be here today proclaiming to you that God has made me into an Author and a Life Purpose Coach,
….and yet here I am.
Don’t tell me God can’t use you because of your past. I am a walking miracle and living proof. And He uses my past to set others free now!
You are a walking miracle!! You may not know it yet, but you are.
After writing my first book, Climbing Out of the Box, My Journey Out of Sexual and Spiritual Abuse Into Freedom and Healing, I learned that it is in our vulnerability and transparency that others can truly relate and be transformed by our stories. I learned to let my story go for the good of mankind, so to speak. For I knew if my story could possibly change the life on one person it would have been worth it to me and to Jesus.
Then I went a step further and realized that even if it was just an act of obedience and I was writing just for Jesus, it still would be more than worth it.
The surprise was that in writing my story….
I FOUND HEALING!!
And this is why I am such a promoter of journaling your story and thoughts and prayers to God. If you have coached with me you already know that. In getting it all out your story begins to make more sense, your life purpose comes into focus, and you find a cleansing of the past like never before.
So, I moved forward in my writing at first never really knowing if it was real. At first I had no idea what I was doing. It was blind faith. We use the tools and gifting God has given us….sometimes without seeing the completed plan. He grows us up to reach outside of ourselves to see others walk in the same freedoms.
And that is my goal, really; To make a difference in the lives of others.
I love to write but I’m not really patient to wait for the plan, the dream, to unfold. Especially if I have a vision of what I want to put down on paper. I can see it. I can feel it. I am excited about it. I want to do it now and see it published next week.
But then I wait and write.
And wait and write some more.
And then I don’t want to let go if it, again, and wonder why anyone would want t o read my stuff.
Looking at my motives I realized it is not just about whether my book will be a best seller or not, though that would be wonderful. It is about being me and being true to who I was created to be and to my calling. God has a plan. Then I had to face the fact that even if I knew it wouldn’t be a best seller, I would write it anyway, if only to reach that one person who thought there was no hope left.
There is a divine journey assigned to just me. There is one assigned to you too. It is a journey about reaching out, touching lives, healing hearts and being vulnerable enough with my story that it will truly make a difference in the lives of others.
I want to flow in His plan and not get ahead of myself. At least in my heart I do. My head is a different matter. It wants everything yesterday. It’s because I have this dream, and it is not going away. I have more stories to tell. They are not going away either. But when I am writing I have need of patience and I always learn in the process.
Maybe it simply means validation. When my books make it into print, it says to me, “Yes, you are doing this right.” I am doing what I’m meant to be doing.
So, here I am with one book published and one about to be published in a week or two; waiting for them to get in the hands of the right people through social media and word of mouth,
..and being okay with it.
My soon to be released book, 50 Ways to Meet Your Lover, A Captivating Invitation Into a Daily Walk Of Intimacy With Jesus the Lover of Your Heart and Soul is a compilation of my own personal journey– stories of faith, trial and temptations and humor. It amazes me that many of you will be reading about my very private times of intimacy with Jesus, and actually growing in faith to the place that if He can do it for me, He can certainly do it for you. At least that is my prayer.
It’s not as though I have a choice. I can’t control it, this walk of faith –not if I want to continue upward. And I can’t control the outcome or the wait. But God knows and His timing is always best for our journeys.
He zigs while I zag……I must continue to walk in the light of Him on my journey. It is all about surrendering to the process of growing.
Both books can be purchased on Amazon in a few weeks!! You can get Climbing Out of the Box right now!