Never would have even guessed
the day would come
when it seems like every picture created in my mind
from my youth
every security I held onto…
and His plan would take on whole new meaning
where did everyone go
is this what it feels like to grow older
…means there was an illusion
did I think I could keep everyone around me
at least the respect of connection
what is the plan now
came into the world feeling empty
what am I missing, Lord
what will the end be
will restoration come before death
or will restoration be there after
I know it will be so
now I will wait
for the joy to be complete
in this new life
without the old pictures of my youth…………
Every one of us grow up with pictures in our minds of how our life will be. We have children and create more joyful pictures of how our babies will certainly act with us when they are grown. We see them and believe for them and live for them and would die for them.
But I have found in not only my own life but in so many I coach out of tough emotional places, the toughest part is learning to let go of those pictures embedded in our minds, and accept what is–what we can’t change….with faith, of course, in Gods unique plan for them to carry them through their own tough places……and to our shock it most never fits the way WE thought it was going to.
We get stuck there in that place, and disillusioned with life and feel as if all we believed for will never come to pass. Our perceptions are totally different from everyone else’s perceptions. So we must find that place in Him that we keep believing for His plan to develop in our loved ones lives, even when it seems totally opposite from the way we think it should be. And yes, even though it is hard, a loss, and painful.
We are not God and have very limited knowledge of the hearts of those we love more than our life. But He does. And sometimes He answers our prayers with much higher priorities in mind for their lives. We must keep believing.
We must learn to not make it about us and our inability to control everyone around us.
We can’t get in the way. Surrender to Him who knows how to heal, and restore, and make all things new.
If you need help in this tough place, please contact me for Life Coaching. You don’t have to stay in pain. There is a place of peace and acceptance with faith!!