For 5 years I gathered up my 3 grandchildren and taught them about Jesus –every week. They were 4 and 6 years old when we began. Christopher was 6. He was such a sponge… soaking up all he could about Jesus, heaven, and living in the Kingdom here on earth. The letter is his proclamation to get baptized.
So, their Papa, me and their dads, baptized them in a Jacuzzi. They sang, “Let’s Go Down to the River”…..
As Chris grew physically, he grew spiritually as well. He was very deep and spent a lot of time studying and talking to God. I was privileged to live close by and got to be a part of all my grandchildren’s lives.
Chris and I have a bond. I was there when he, my first born grandson, was born. I remember driving to San Diego in the wee hours of the morning to get to the hospital to watch his birth…..the sun was rising and I looked up and God spoke to me. He said this child would be blessed and do great things, just as sunlight beamed down on my car, and I felt His presence and his peace.
Chris faced a life of trials that no young man should have to face, but he always kept his composure and his faith and had a perseverance to move forward….even when he was stuck in life he always found the courage to find a way out.
Then came the day he announced to his family that he had sought God for a long time on the course his life was to take, and he knew he was being called into joining the Marines. I wanted him to join anything BUT the Marines. His Mom and I cried. I knew he was going to be entering a time of endurance like never before. But he was adamant that was where he was to go. Fear and pride were mixed together watching him pursue this career.
So, I prayed…and prayed…and still praying. But not in fear. The Lord spoke to me as I was praying Psalm 91 over him. He said,
“You have been praying over my son since he was born, Dixie. Those prayers are still in effect, and I assigned more angels to Christopher 2 weeks ago. “
Stunned I said, “Wow, Lord, thank you! How many?”
He said, “Three for now. They are with him every minute. At night they are standing on either side of his bed, and one at his feet.”
“Before they call I will answer; while they are still speaking I will hear.” Is. 65:24
So, he left for boot camp 2 weeks ago with those angels. Of course, I am tempted to worry, and to fret, and to doubt. It’s hard to let the ones you love go and trust God is faithful to cover them, encourage them, and protect him.
“ Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?” Heb. 1:14
But, you know what? That is what living in the Kingdom is all about. You have to be diligent. You have to stay close to Jesus, and you have to persevere.
And you learn how to let go.
Faith is NOT feelings. Think about that.
Your feelings may betray you, but never allow them to rob you of what is more real than your feelings….your faith.
I wrote Chris a letter before he left reminding him that the very same power that raised Jesus from the dead, dwells in him. And that power is there to call on when he has reached the end of his own strength. He smiled when he read it and said,
“I know, Nana.”
Are you praying and believing for someone you love very much. Remember, we worry about things that we can’t control. To walk free of anxiety and fear, we have to lean into Him.
For He is speaking all the time. He promises to NEVER, EVER leave you no matter what.
And when there are trials and hardships, He is still there, in our suffering, making Himself known.
He says angels are there for us…”for those that are heirs of salvation”…
So, do you use them. Or, at least have an awareness, that they are assigned to you. Believing what you cannot see?
As my children and grands grew, Psalm 91 was my go to whenever I feared for them or worried about them. As soon as I prayed that Psalm, I felt his peace and reassurance that His word does not return to him without accomplishing what He wants and offers us.
Now, my daughter, Christopher’s mom, will not close her eyes at night without praying that word over herself and her loved ones.
He is our peace.
When my father, on his death bed, told me he couldn’t forgive ME for exposing him for molesting me and my daughter, I was stunned. This didn’t fit my picture of him repenting before his death and telling me he loved me and was sorry for what he did to us. No, instead, he blamed me for telling ‘our’ secret and exposing him for who he really was. I was alone in the room with him, speechless. At that moment I felt the overwhelming presence of Jesus, sitting in the chair with me. I, seriously, felt him lean over and whisper in my ear, (I actually felt his breath on my ear), and he said,
“Dixie, you are not alone, I am right here. I will never leave you.”
And I had such a sense of peace. As shocked as I was at my father’s sense of entitlement, narcissism, and unrepentant heart, on his death bed, to actually still be blaming me for his crime that changed me and Heather forever… I felt removed emotionally…. and the presence of Jesus was so tangent that I walked out of the hospital room that day with a smile on my face. Those were the last words with my father before he died. But the presence of Jesus enabled me to totally let him go.
“ Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces.” Ps. 34:5
In all of our turbulent lives He promises to be there and there is no limit to His presence…you can be mindful of it every day and press in and live in the supernatural…or you can choose to ignore it. But if you ignore it you will be missing out on the abundant life He offers….
I thank you that because I dwell in the shelter of You, Most High God I will find rest in the shadow of You, my Almighty. This I declare about You Lord: You alone are my refuge, my place of safety; You are my God, and I trust You alone, For You will rescue me from every trap and protect me from deadly disease. You will cover me with Your feathers. You will shelter me with Your wings. Your faithful promises are my armor and protection. I will not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrow that flies in the day. I will not dread the disease that stalks in darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday. Though a thousand fall at my side, though ten thousand may be dying around me, these evils will not touch me. I will open my eyes, and see how the wicked are punished.
Lord, I will make You my refuge, and I will make You, Most High, my shelter, no evil will conquer me; no plague will come near my home. Thank you for ordering Your angels to protect me wherever I go. They will hold me up with their hands so I won’t even hurt my foot on a stone. I will trample upon lions and cobras; I will crush fierce lions and serpents under my feet!
Lord You have said You will rescue those who love You and You will protect those who trust in Your name. When I call on You, You will answer; You will be with me in trouble. You will rescue and honor me and You will reward me with a long life and give me Your salvation.” Amen!
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