It is my story. MY story! We all have a story. This is mine. I am getting ready in a few weeks to launch my 2nd book, 50 Ways To Meet Your Lover, An Invitation Into a Captivating Walk With Jesus the Lover of Your Heart and Soul.
A SECOND BOOK! How crazy is that?
Who knew this would happen in my life. I could not have dreamed that the little girl who was a victim of incest, abused by her spiritual leaders; the woman who endured seeing her own sweet little girl become a victim of the same travesty; the woman who had no self esteem, no hope for the future, and no idea she even had a gift to use for God could be here today proclaiming to you that God has made me into an Author and a Life Purpose Coach,
….and yet here I am.
Don’t tell me God can’t use you because of your past. I am a walking miracle and living proof. And He uses my past to set others free now!
You are a walking miracle!! You may not know it yet, but you are.
After writing my first book, Climbing Out of the Box, My Journey Out of Sexual and Spiritual Abuse Into Freedom and Healing, I learned that it is in our vulnerability and transparency that others can truly relate and be transformed by our stories. I learned to let my story go for the good of mankind, so to speak. For I knew if my story could possibly change the life on one person it would have been worth it to me and to Jesus.
Then I went a step further and realized that even if it was just an act of obedience and I was writing just for Jesus, it still would be more than worth it.
The surprise was that in writing my story….
I FOUND HEALING!!
And this is why I am such a promoter of journaling your story and thoughts and prayers to God. If you have coached with me you already know that. In getting it all out your story begins to make more sense, your life purpose comes into focus, and you find a cleansing of the past like never before.
So, I moved forward in my writing at first never really knowing if it was real. At first I had no idea what I was doing. It was blind faith. We use the tools and gifting God has given us….sometimes without seeing the completed plan. He grows us up to reach outside of ourselves to see others walk in the same freedoms.
And that is my goal, really; To make a difference in the lives of others.
I love to write but I’m not really patient to wait for the plan, the dream, to unfold. Especially if I have a vision of what I want to put down on paper. I can see it. I can feel it. I am excited about it. I want to do it now and see it published next week.
But then I wait and write.
And wait and write some more.
And then I don’t want to let go if it, again, and wonder why anyone would want t o read my stuff.
Looking at my motives I realized it is not just about whether my book will be a best seller or not, though that would be wonderful. It is about being me and being true to who I was created to be and to my calling. God has a plan. Then I had to face the fact that even if I knew it wouldn’t be a best seller, I would write it anyway, if only to reach that one person who thought there was no hope left.
There is a divine journey assigned to just me. There is one assigned to you too. It is a journey about reaching out, touching lives, healing hearts and being vulnerable enough with my story that it will truly make a difference in the lives of others.
I want to flow in His plan and not get ahead of myself. At least in my heart I do. My head is a different matter. It wants everything yesterday. It’s because I have this dream, and it is not going away. I have more stories to tell. They are not going away either. But when I am writing I have need of patience and I always learn in the process.
Maybe it simply means validation. When my books make it into print, it says to me, “Yes, you are doing this right.” I am doing what I’m meant to be doing.
So, here I am with one book published and one about to be published in a week or two; waiting for them to get in the hands of the right people through social media and word of mouth,
..and being okay with it.
My soon to be released book, 50 Ways to Meet Your Lover, A Captivating Invitation Into a Daily Walk Of Intimacy With Jesus the Lover of Your Heart and Soul is a compilation of my own personal journey– stories of faith, trial and temptations and humor. It amazes me that many of you will be reading about my very private times of intimacy with Jesus, and actually growing in faith to the place that if He can do it for me, He can certainly do it for you. At least that is my prayer.
It’s not as though I have a choice. I can’t control it, this walk of faith –not if I want to continue upward. And I can’t control the outcome or the wait. But God knows and His timing is always best for our journeys.
He zigs while I zag……I must continue to walk in the light of Him on my journey. It is all about surrendering to the process of growing.
Both books can be purchased on Amazon in a few weeks!! You can get Climbing Out of the Box right now!
Are you frustrated and feel as if God isn’t using you the way you think He should be? Is it not happening fast enough? Do you watch other ministries and find yourself envying their positions and wish you could be them?
I always thought that because God had called me to write and teach that I needed a growing audience to validate that calling. I was so driven to find myself a platform or audience worthy of my calling and found myself sorely frustrated that God wouldn’t bless my efforts the way I thought it was supposed to happen.
It just wasn’t fast enough.
It is exhausting promoting yourself.
Where do we draw the line in losing ourselves and our energy in self promoting, and just allowing Him to get our gifts and talents out where He purposed for them to go?
Here I am at the cusp of another book being birthed to the multitudes. “50 Ways to Meet Your Lover” is in proof stage now and in a few weeks will be ready to be presented to the world.
This is my 2nd book and I have to say I have learned a few things along the way.
I have given myself permission to breathe…. and trust Him to guide me to the next step.
These are some of the things I have learned in the last few years of trial and error in my writing and teaching. This is not an exhaustive list because I am certain there are still many things He will open my eyes to!
But allow me to share a few points that I have learned now:
1. Being seen as a celebrity in any sense of the word is a deceitful ploy of the enemy. We have been brought up to admire and envy people who have celebrity status. Many times celebrities in the church world perceive their value as a human as usually based on a need to be recognized as a person of value.
Jesus let His disciples know that His kingdom works very differently.
2. It is often true that those who make such big jumps into perceived celebrity often get twisted by them, and end up crushing others when their influence exceeds their personal character. Perhaps that’s what Paul meant when he warned us not to think of ourselves more highly than we ought to think, whether we aspire to a place of influence or already have it and think it gives us a place above others.
3. Whatever we do for God must be just that. For Him. What He does with our works or service or gifts is up to Him. We want our message out there, of course. But according to His purposes, not our own perceived purposes. When I wrote “Climbing Out of the Box”, I had to give it to Him. I still do. And even if my story sets one person free from a life of abuse and into freedom in Jesus then it will have been worth it. And, to date, it has set many more than just one free.
4. Instead of looking for what we don’t have, Luke 14 invites us into responding to God’s working right where we are in life.
Rather than having to make something happen by our own wisdom, the path to God’s life comes by loving the people He has already put before us, applying our gifts to their needs and trusting the rest to Him.
I’m convinced that will create opportunity enough for whatever God wants to give us and what He desires us to share with them. Yes, marketing a book is necessary so that people will see it and buy it and see their lives changed by it. But if it isn’t in His timing and it doesn’t sell fast enough, then I have to accept that He knows what He is doing. He will make it happen. Not me. I just do what He tells me to do.
5. Most of our questions to Him center around how to make ourselves known to the world and usually focuses on our abilities, wisdom, or connections. He works so differently than we do.
We try to find that one key to open big doors, rather than allowing ourselves to live freely in what God has already given.
It’s easy to miss His whispers when we’re more focused on our own desires for ministry. He knows how to draw us into relationship with Him and it’s not by following someone else’s steps. We are unique and what He does for one may not be what He does for me.
In the end, we are only asked to follow him, not to build an audience or to produce our own transformation.
Whenever you are frustrated at God for not opening better doors for you, that might be a sign that you’re focused at the wrong doors.
I am learning that growth of simple relationship with Him is more trustworthy than the substitutes of self-promotion, manipulation and begging favors from others.
So how do you find ministry, find fellowship, or live transformed as you seek Him?
Simply accept the invitation to live deeply in Jesus and love those around you the way you are coming to understand how He loves you. Listen when He nudges your heart. Step out in faith in what He whispers to you.
If you live in His space you will find His power transforming you, His Spirit connecting you to others and everything He wants to do in you will be fulfilled by Him.
If the disciples had set out to change the world outside of waiting on Him, don’t you think they would have failed miserably and become lost in their own reasoning and ideas to accomplish so large a task?
“We are intimately linked in this harvest work. Anyone who accepts what you do, accepts me, the One who sent you. Anyone who accepts what I do accepts my Father, who sent me. Accepting a messenger of God is as good as being God’s messenger. Accepting someone’s help is as good as giving someone help. This is a large work I’ve called you into, but don’t be overwhelmed by it. It’s best to start small. Give a cool cup of water to someone who is thirsty, for instance. The smallest act of giving or receiving makes you a true apprentice. You won’t lose out on a thing.” -Matthew 10:41-42 (The Message)
Jesus knew the most amazing things could begin with a cup of cold water.